Thursday, July 06, 2006
ok. i dont know what got over me to post this, but i shall.
the thing is, i cant accept the fact that she's like part of our clique. its like before she fell out with her old clique, she never even gave a damn about us. all she ever did was hate a few of us. yes i know she hated a few specific people. thats why i never got a good impression of her.
she never bothered to be nice to us, and just totally left us out of her life. she never bothered to make us feel included, and just stuck to that clique of hers. from what i heard from one of them, she bitches about us too.
but when she needed us, she was a completely different person. she was oh-so-nice to us, standing up for everyone in the clique (whether its an act or not i have no idea, and im in no position to comment), and simply turned her back against her whole clique, just bad-mouthing them in front of us. we dont need to know what they did to you thank you very much. its not that i refuse to let her be one of us, but its just that, if she had despised us so much in the past, why even bother to become one of us?
the answer: she has no one else. she simply used another girl (or two) as a stepping stone, and not before long she referred to us as the 9 of us. i just keep quiet about it, but inside, im not very impressed. im sorry, but its just that, if you can ever do that to your so-called friends, i wonder what you can do to us. i dont know whether she's just hiding behind a mask, or just being the person she really is (which means she wore a mask in front of her old group of friends)
whatever it is, i dont want to hang out with a hypocrite. i dont care what will be done to me, she can use me and hurt me for all i care, but dont touch my friends.
or maybe its simply jealousy? i dont think so though, i know a few of them had and might still have the same feelings as i do. and i dont feel good about this
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